Sunday, October 31, 2010

Weekend Off: HALLOWEEN





So, we decided what Coop was going to be a looong time ago (when the mullet first came on the scene, and then I decided there was NO WAY I would be able to make his costume this year, then I decided that heck yes I would make his costume this year, and TA-DA, Cooper as Hulk Hogan.

I think if you combine the pictures you may get most of what the costume consisted of:

- Hulkamania muscle shirt
- Leggings
- Feather Boa
- Championship belt
- Boots
- Bandanna (not pictured)
- Mustache

Most of the costume was purchased in the Target little girls' section. And, when he refused the Bandanna and had to cover his muscle shirt with a sweatshirt he was referred to as a she... twice... but on the whole I was pretty happy with how it turned out. Those in the know - all the young dads or guys about Steve's age that we passed recognized him as Hulk Hogan, so it was at least kind of authentic-looking.

Sadly, we no longer have a reason to grow out the mullet. The hair is getting a trim. It was going to happen tonight, but we were a little rushed, and I decided that forcing a first haircut when one's child is especially squirmy would probably not be a proud parenting moment, so we pushed it off until tomorrow... or the next day... we shall see how work goes.

Happy Halloween, Coop - I am glad you are finally old enough to go get Mamma some candy!

Weekend Off: Saturday



So, what to do when you don't have to work on a beautiful fall weekend in Chicago...

Well, Saturday we hung out at home with Coop and were basically vegetables most of the day, and then we got a sitter and went to the Bulls home opener. Which was actually really exciting and great comeback game but most fun because we got to hang with our friends and then walked the 2.5 miles back from the United Center to our house. Walking 2.5 miles in Chicago at the end of October would generally be on the bottom of my list of things to do, but the weather was amazing, it was a beautiful night, and we just started walking - first to find a place where we could get a cab easier... then the rest of the way, because who needs a cab?

I love this picture of Steve because he looks especially pale and slightly inebriated (which he wasn't, I believe I am the only one holding a beer in the picture), but when you still haven't lost all of your baby weight, it is nice to be the one who looks decent in the pictures every once in a while : )

Friday, October 29, 2010

Shhhhhhhh....

There is looking to be a decent chance that I may get out of here today and not have to come back until Monday... DON'T ANYONE MOVE A MUSCLE.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Three Weeks

It is INSANE to think that it has been three weeks since I started work. THREE WEEKS. It seems like just a minute ago. This is because time goes by REALLY fast when you are REALLY busy. Which is a wonderful thing when at work, and something I actively try to find a cure for when I am at home. Sadly, Steve has not been doing a good job of taking pictures of the Coop when I have been away - perhaps because he is too busy making sure the house stays standing, because I have no idea who is keeping things together when I am not here (not that I kept it together myself when I WAS around more, but I definitely was able to supervise and keep track of who was keeping it together). Don't worry, we will have LOTS of pictures after this weekend.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Like a Horse

When I leave for work each day, I leave with a purpose. I have somewhere to go, I carry a heavy load. I don't resent it, or begrudge it, but I carry it just the same. It is my responsibility to take care of you, to take care of your dad, as it is his responsibility to take care of me and you, too, as it is your responsibility to be loved. I leave and trot at a steady pace to the place where I wander the halls, looking for fodder for my brain, setting into a steady rhythm for the day.

When I come home from work, I walk at a brisker pace. The days work is done, and I even enjoyed it, but I can see The Home, and I can feel it pulling me faster with each inch I get closer. Step by step until I realize I have to gallop to get to the light and across the street before it changes. I can feel your closeness, and I continue running, half gallop half canter half tripping in my high heels.

Some day I hope you will get to ride a horse, and when you do, you will understand this analogy. Horses are happy to go out for a ride, but they always go quicker on the return trip, because that's when they know they are going home.

I love you, Cooper, my boogity boy. I may be leaving you each day, for sometimes really long stretches of time, but know that I am running home.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Not Sure How...

Not sure how I am going to continue this little blog for family now that life includes a law firm gig. Then again, I am kind of surprised I have kept up with it the way I have... I think it is just the right combination of cathartic outlet, baby book, connection to friends and family, and pathetic attempt to freeze time that keeps me coming back and posting moments, images, memories...

Sheesh - I am tired (clearly) as realize I am writing as I am daydreaming. Apologies.

Anywho. Today was my first REAL day of work if I want to be honest about it. Today the gloves came off. Today there was an end to one or two simple tasks and an introduction to many many tasks all needing to be done, oh, right about NOW. And, it was pretty great. No, I didn't put Coop to bed tonight - his sitter (who I adore) did - but I did earlier this week, and I will see him tomorrow morning, and that just has to be ok for right now, and thankfully it is because when I am at work I am BUSY. I would take a 12 hour day of go-go-go-go busy over an 8 hour day of twiddling my thumbs ANY day. (Ok, so maybe not ANY day, I am pretty sure there will come a time that after x number of 12 hour days I will be like GIVE ME THAT 8 HOUR DAY BACK, but I am not sure what x equals, and perhaps either x is big enough or my firm is family friendly enough that I shall never find out. OPTIMISM!)

So... posting may be a bit light(er) for a bit unless I can convince Steve to do it (ha ha ha!!!!) But I will try to put good content (read: pictures) in whenever I can.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Top Ten Things I am Loving About Cooper Right Now

1) His increased focus. When I watch him look at a book, he really takes the time to look at each page, and only flips one page at a time. If two pages happen to turn at the same time, he will go back and review the missed page – wanting to be sure he doesn’t miss something important and that the author didn’t come in overnight and rewrite the Belly Button Book.

2) His eagerness to help. No matter what we ask him to do (presuming he is onboard with wanting to do it) he will try to help us. If it is putting on shoes, he will throw his foot up in the air. If it is taking a bath, he will run to the bathroom and try to disrobe.

3) Hand holding. Still so friggin great. I expect this to remain on a top 10 list until he refuses to do it out of total embarrassment that I am his mother.

4) When he is too tired to walk. He will be walking beside me, holding my hand, and I will know he has walked as far as his tired little legs can carry him, because he will take a hustled step to scurry in front of me, turn to face me, place his hands on my thighs and stop me from moving another step forward and put his hands up. He is heavy, and carrying him around can be exhausting, but I do so love when he asks me to do it.

5) Thoughtful Cooper. No matter what, when we ask him a question now, like “do you want to take a bath” or “are you still hungry, do you want more?” he will stop and think before he responds. He is not always giving us the answer we want, but he seems to at least always consider what we are saying, which is more than I can say for some full grown people out there, so bravo Cooper!

6) Naked Cooper. Cooper has learned how to take off his diaper. Thus, on almost all occasions pants are a necessity (and yes, prior to this, pants were somewhat optional for Cooper). He has some interest in the potty (toying with me I am sure, as I know most boys don’t potty train for another year or so) but mainly he just likes to run around bottom half naked. On the off chance this leads to spontaneous potty training (we can hope, right?) we have allowed some naked Cooper so long as he is near his potty (potty training by association). Regardless, all the potty training talk is beside the point – he is just the cutest little naked thing in the world.

7) Monkey blanket giggles. Every night, without fail, when we cover him with his thick, soft, amazingly dreamy monkey blanket he will giggle like we are tickling his chubby little thighs… whether we are tickling his chubby little thighs or not. I don’t know if the blanket tickles him, or the giggles are merely giggles of happiness, but it is a sound I would bottle if I could. It is a giggle that comes from his belly and literally fills up all the space in the room.

8) Two-handed face grab Eskimo kiss. I say, “Cooper, give Mommy an Eskimo kiss.” He does: walks real close, reaches out both hands and puts one hand on either side of my face, oh so very gently, and then brushes his nose against mine. Those hands are so tiny and yet they hold my face and my heart and pretty much my whole world.

9) Extended patience. Cooper’s patience seems to have grown in the last few months. He was a real trooper when we went driving around looking at houses (not thrilling for a toddler), and yes we planned ahead with snacks, and yes we stopped at a park halfway through, but still, he has just been so much more chill than he should be at this age… and man is it nice.

10) Coming home “Ma Ma.” He calls my name (or rather my name in his world) out every time I come through the door from work. He says it differently than he does any other time of day he calls out to me or for me. I love every time I hear him utter “Ma Ma” because it still makes me feel special to be his Ma Ma, but there is something even more special about the way he announces my arrival home.

Monday, October 18, 2010

Just Like Mommy





And because he is my son, to go with his new pair of boots, we also bought him a new pair of shoes.

Weekend







In a weird alternate universe that has never existed before, we enjoyed a weekend that actually felt long. Usually weekends fly by quicker then 2 hours of a Monday and before you know it, it is back to Monday. This past weekend was the weekend of all weekends - the weekend I hope the rest of my weekends try to be like. I have no idea what made it feel so long - probably because we crammed so much into it - Friday was a date night, with Steve and I walking to a wonderful restaurant, enjoying 3 courses and cocktails and wine - enjoying the brisk Chicago Fall that seems too good to be true on the stroll back home. Saturday was spent driving around looking at houses that are for sale - we aren't buying, but we are pretending. Then we went shopping for some (more) work clothes for me and a new winter coat for Steve. I am down to the last few pieces to complete a pretty workable work wardrobe and Steve finally has a coat he really likes. Sunday we met Steve's parents and Beka for breakfast - then strolled back for a day of football and lounging. Cooper was a delight all weekend and I gobbled him up as much as necessary to feel restored for another week of work.

But, to the most important part of our weekend - Boots! Coop got his first pair of rain boots. Not because it has been exceptionally rainy round these parts, but because they are too funny and he is too cute.

Friday, October 15, 2010

To Cut or Not to Cut...

Steve asked me last Sunday when I was going to cut Cooper's hair, and I said "soon, maybe next weekend"

(background: as Halloween has now changed since I acknowledged that I would literally have to turn into SuperWoman to create a homemade Halloween costume this year and have since gotten a store bought one that does not require the mullet, we now have no reason to NOT cut his hair)

Two days ago I made a comment that I was going to cut Coop's hair this weekend.

Steve looked at me appalled and said "No, why do you have to?"

To which I said "I thought you WANTED me to, you asked me when I would do it just a few days ago."

To which he said he was just asking cause he thought I would, but he doesn't want me to because it is "so cute."

Agreed. It is "SO cute."

But, before we had this little bundle of cuteness, we both agreed that we would not let his hair grow out like a little girl, because we both prefer to stick with societal norms for children's hair (we are SO conventional).

Unlike most things with parenting, I have pretty much adhered to the plan - I don't think I was wildly optimistic about how I would be as a mom prior to actually mom-ing, but rather pretty accurate. I hold myself to meeting the same standards I set for myself as a parent back before I knew how hard being a parent was... sometimes it nearly kills me, but I think I do all right. But, this, THIS... well, is THIS what gets me. Is this where I falter and become one of those parents who says one thing before they have kids and then sings a completely different tune afterwards???

OR, will Cooper be sporting a shorter 'do' soon???

Only time will tell...

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

To Work!!!

Nothing like going to work SICK AS A DOG (thanks a LOT Cooper!!!) Yes Cooper came down with a cold, and it hardly fazed him, but he passed it on to me and I spent my first day of work palming kleenex, doped up on DayQuil, running out of a meeting and to a water fountain when a cough attack snuck up on me TWICE, and looking like an emotional wreck when I ran into strangers in the bathroom, when I was not actually crying, but rather my tear ducts were under siege by allergies. Lovely.

Anywho, with work comes changes - comes walking out the door to the sound of my first born wailing "Don't go Mommy" in Cooper speak, comes dressing up in real clothes and dodging fingers covered in blueberries, comes stepping out of an old skin and into a new one (even if only til I walk back through the door home), and comes the payoff of all those years (and dollars) in graduate school.

Already I have pictures of Coop decorating my office, and we smile at each other when I chance glances up from my laptop.

There is not really a lot to say about going to work that should be said here - it is what it is. I worked before now, both at home and away, and Cooper has had a working Mommy for the majority of his life. Yes, this job is different, and yes, I face the same thing that every other working mom faces, but I have learned that work is work, home is home, and going strong at one does not detract from the other. I cannot anticipate the big deals that might come up in the future, but why speculate. In total, I am happy as heck, feeling very good, and rocked my baby to sleep both nights this week (or rather, gave him a bottle and plopped his giggling little booty in bed and listened to him babble himself to dreamland).

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Final Installation




And, finally, Coop re-donned his cap.

The After Party Pictures...





And afterward we went back for some grub and some playing.

The Pictures of the Actual Event





Here are pictures during the baptism... and a couple immediately after.

Godparent Michael DiStefano and Godparent Proxy for Aunt Krishia MaMaw were present.

And Still More...

Prior to the baptism...




And Somre Mooooore Pictures...




Even More Pictures





And some more pictures in the church.

Pictures, Continued...





Here are some more pictures at the church.

Check out the ankle chub on number 4... delicious!

Baptism de Cooper

Cooper was baptized today.

There is plenty to say, but I think my feelings on religion and on why we had Cooper baptized are probably better left for an in person direct chat between myself and my little guy, so instead, I will just say that we had a LOT of wonderful people there, some from far far away, and some there in spirit.

Now, for what really matters, the pictures.

A preview before we left our house...



Tuesday, October 5, 2010

Happy AND Sad, Both at the Same Time.

Today was a wonderful day, and not just because of the sleeping in.

Today was a sad day, too.

Today is the first time we had our sitter come during Coop's awake hours. She has come a couple times when he was asleep, but we thought it was best that she come a few times and DO the bedtime routine before we absolutely needed her to, so that the first time Coop met her and hung out with her, there was a safety net, cause as we all know, Cooper doesn't like strangers.

HA HA HA HA!!!

The truth is, Mama and Daddy need the safety net. Cooper, he has already moved on.

I don't have anywhere to be today - or this whole week really. This is my week off work, and I want to spend as much time as possible breathing in Cooper. But, more then that, I want to make sure we are both ready for next week, so I donated 3 hours this Tuesday and Thursday to our sitter and Cooper so they can begin what I can already tell is going to be an awesome relationship.

Seriously, I spent the evening on the treadmill, and I could hear the giggles coming from the living room.

Someone else is about to rock him to bed tonight, one of the last nights I can definitely be here to do it. In a way it is breaking my heart, but in another, MUCH bigger way, it makes me happy and confident and secure. We found someone Cooper already has googly-eyes for, and as someone who fell in love with the kids I used to watch - the kids I still adore and keep in touch with, I feel really lucky Cooper will have an additional person loving him.

And how could she not?

Vegas Pictures: Part 6





Our last night out at Tony Romos- Steve got a picture of Coop with his Vegas family. I can't wait until he grows up enough to listen to the stories they can tell. His Uncle Sammy was, and still is, pretty much a legend in Vegas. Everywhere we went people knew him and came to say hello.

Our last night we had a freak of nature incident when our door's lock wouldn't work - and we are talking about a heavy duty lock. It took less then an hour to resolve, and with restrooms available in the lobby there was no real emergency - we all just kind of hung out in the hallway. Except for Cooper - he ran laps - back and forth and back and forth.

Vegas Pictures: Part 5







Dolphins above ground.

We didn't get good non-blurry pics of the tigers, but they were very cool, too.

Coop also enjoyed lounging on the sofa in his diaper. What a stud, huh?